How is it that 3 months after all the boy drama I had this summer, that I still think about him EVERY DAY???
Seriously there is not a day that goes by that He doesn’t cross my mind. Ridiculous. Seriously Ridiculous.
I don’t want him back, he is not who I want in my life. But still I think about him. I miss him. Or more specifically I miss the things we did together. I think that’s really what it is. I miss the companionship. The partner in crime.
But it doesn’t make it any easier. Even though I know in my head that it is over and there is no going back no additional chances, doesn’t mean that I don’t have this wave of sadness and disappointment come over me when he pops in my head. Every day. That’s what makes it so frustrating. I feel like the fact that he crosses my mind everyday still give him a power over me. A power that is keeping me from moving on. I know very logically that I am moved on. I know very logically that I am happier and focusing on the future. But then bam I lay in bed and think about how much fun it would be to do xyz with him.
I know I am in control of my thoughts, I am pretty much able to shut my mind down from going down this path, but it still sucks I have to “Work” to do that. I wish he wasn’t even on my radar.
How do I do that? How do I forget about him all together?