I am in hibernation mode. Don’t want to spend money, don’t want to eat out, don’t really want to be social. Want to focus on ME. I want to go to the gym, eat well, sleep well and do what makes me happy.
How is this different than other times? Who knows, all I know is that Hibernation mode has set in. I think honestly it is really driven by 2 things. 1. My clothes are not fitting well and 2. I am Broke.
Yup Broke. I really have been spending like crazy the last 6 months and it is catching up with me. So that lack of money is forcing me to hibernate. Is that a good thing? Possibly. It does allow me to focus more on the eating well, sleeping well etc. But it also ends up being kind of lame. Also kind of Frustrating.
I mean its frustrating to not have the money to go out for wine night or to a concert/festival this Thanksgiving weekend. So while some of it is frustrating because I want to do those things, I have to look bigger picture. If I buckle down the next 2 months then I will be rewarded in the end. I will have paid down some debt and I will probably loose the 15 lbs I have gained back over the last 6 months.
Ironic that my fun last 6 months also equals gaining back 15 lbs. I have come to realization in my life that to stay where I want in regards to my body image, requires a Tight diet and exersise. But really more about the diet, which is the hardest part becuase I love food and drink. I am no way obssessed with how I look but I have come to understand a few things about what helps to drive my happiness and one is the way I look and feel and that has a direct correlation with my diet. Thanks to food sensitivities. So back to the clean, low carb eating and hopefully the bloat (muffin top), dry skin and itchy scalp, acne and a few other things will go away.
So while I sometimes get annoyed that I am in forced Hibernation mode due to finances, I have to quickly remind myself that there is a reason for it and a much bigger reward.